When I realized that I was going to be working at HoneyRock, I was ecstatic. I pictured myself swimming everyday, tanning (in my one piece bathing suit--super cute), and hanging out with a bunch of people all the time. I guess you could say that what I pictured in my head was way different than what actually happened the first week I was here. Turns out, I would be working all day when the sun was hot, and at night I would be calling everybody in my phonebook because I was so homesick. I cleaned all day, sometimes by myself, while all the other staff got to work with tons of people and do fun training activities. I was honestly having a pity party for myself each night and making up scenarios of what to tell my boss about why I "had" to go home for the summer.
I didn't understand why God would bring me to this camp and give me no community. I was angry and regretting my decision to trust in The Lord that HoneyRock was the place to come for my whole summer. I was spending hours with God one night and getting really angry at Him for bringing me to the middle of nowhere away from all my friends and family. I then realized that I had not spent this much time praying and crying and worshipping God in a really long time. School, finals, friends, had all gotten in the way of spending time with my Jesus. Then I saw why I was given time to work by myself and nights alone to cry and breakdown before The Lord. He cracked me open and showed me that I had been depending so much on other people for love and comfort, that I forgot to lean on Him for that love and comfort. In the blink of an eye, I dropped everything I knew and picked up this new feeling of being able to embrace being alone in Christ.
I now see that in order for me to become more dependent on God and less dependent on others, He had to break me down so that I would learn to lean completely on Him. It is still challenging every day but I have learned to make the best out of every situation here..even though I am only a housekeeper, I am still serving Him and that is enough to make me smile. I am so thankful to be here, in a community full of Christians, who love like no other. The Lord revealed to me a few amazing people who make me a better person every second. I have learned that the most important thing is to put God before anything else. And then He will lead you to those who only make you better and not those who will hurt you.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."
---Jeremiah 29: 11-13
I didn't understand why God would bring me to this camp and give me no community. I was angry and regretting my decision to trust in The Lord that HoneyRock was the place to come for my whole summer. I was spending hours with God one night and getting really angry at Him for bringing me to the middle of nowhere away from all my friends and family. I then realized that I had not spent this much time praying and crying and worshipping God in a really long time. School, finals, friends, had all gotten in the way of spending time with my Jesus. Then I saw why I was given time to work by myself and nights alone to cry and breakdown before The Lord. He cracked me open and showed me that I had been depending so much on other people for love and comfort, that I forgot to lean on Him for that love and comfort. In the blink of an eye, I dropped everything I knew and picked up this new feeling of being able to embrace being alone in Christ.
I now see that in order for me to become more dependent on God and less dependent on others, He had to break me down so that I would learn to lean completely on Him. It is still challenging every day but I have learned to make the best out of every situation here..even though I am only a housekeeper, I am still serving Him and that is enough to make me smile. I am so thankful to be here, in a community full of Christians, who love like no other. The Lord revealed to me a few amazing people who make me a better person every second. I have learned that the most important thing is to put God before anything else. And then He will lead you to those who only make you better and not those who will hurt you.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."
---Jeremiah 29: 11-13